From nothing to everything..

The day when I felt everything,… It does happen rarely but when it does it feels as if somebody has blown life in my body. Suddenly something has liven up every atom in my body. After living by all my life suddenly I feel alive. It is like a beautiful hurricane ripping your soul apart. It is as if it is raining on a parched land. Every grain of sand is thirsty for a drop of water. And now suddenly there is a heavy shower of rain. It did not start with a drizzle. Rather it did not start at all. There was just heavy rains.. with no beginning or end in sight. No matter have much water flows on, it gets soaked up. The plethora of emotion attacks my body, mind and soul. You suddenly feel every emotion.

Till now I was busy - busy living, busy being distracted, busy filling up my schedule with irrelevant chores and unimportant tasks. But suddenly out of nowhere these emotions were gripping me. I could feel everything. I was suddenly an empath. I was feeling the joy of living, the joy of breathing, the joy of being alive.

At the same time, I was feeling the sadness of separation, the giddiness of future, the disappointments of my failures, the anxiety of tomorrow and the contentment of my yesterdays. I could feel every feeling touching my body, entering my soul and moving a part of me. It feels as if my soul is a mystic universe forever revolving, forever changing. As each emotion enters me it throws a part of me in the dark black hole from where it shall never come back. It is like a falling star. All this time, it adorned my universe and it shone on my walls. Now that it has fallen, it will never shine again. It is no more a star, just a memory. As I let every emotion alter the make up of my soul, I wonder what will be left behind. May be someday what will remain of me is ‘nothing’..